My Life is... stuffEvery now and then I try to re-invent myself. Usually I am quickly distracted by some distraction or other that is the bane of the incautious free-thinker like me. When it all boils down it it I am more likely to take a nice long bath followed by a nap then to make myself a better person. I know that I could do an awful lot more with my time if I was gifted with the kind of motivation that others have, but alas the vicious cycle of "too unmotivated to bother motivating myself", "feel useless", "eat something sweet and try to forget about my problems", "forget about one of those problems you have to act on", "feel like I need to improve myself", back to "too unmotivated to bother motivating myself".
Some people would call this depression but I call it "Benjie being a whiny stupid jerk"... which in itself serves to unmotivate me. I only mention it because I know this is probably what some of you are thinking... whoever you are random internet traveler.
The current theory is that working is for saps and what I really need to do is start getting royalties/advertising revenue... or otherwise acquire what some people would refer to as "The Means of Production". I have a number of angles in which I am pursuing this in a... rather inactive and easily distracted manner.
One of these theories is that if I put enough interesting things online, I will have a popular website and gain advertising revenue and be able to work less at my "job" and more on gaining these MoPs. The other idea comes partly from a friend who has decided to give a crack at video game development, as such I have started trying to program again. As when a game is finished it makes money for a period of time after work on it is completed and allows me, again, to pursue other MoPs.
Anyways... I plan... somewhere in the back of my mind at least... to update this blog more often from now on... so if you know me remind me that I said that.
