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The Future

 

First of all I would like to point out that if I don't die due to complications from my caffeine abuse I will be terribly dissapointed... well I guess not because either A: I'm not dead so that's a good thing, or B: I'm dead and either in heaven and don't care... unless I end up spending some time as a ghost... I'm pretty aure christians don't get to be ghosts... but if I DO end up being a ghost, and my death wasn't a direct result of caffeine, I believe I will whine about it to those I have the opportunity to haunt.

 

My wife and I sat down and itemized our near future goals (they do not include me dieing, thoough that has been discussed on occation before, we decided it was a bad idea because she need my income to pay for all the debt we have.)  that include things that I had just assumed we were working towards... I suppose to the organized mind it is helpfull to have a list, but I guess I'm not the kind of person who cares about lists. Anyways, it's a good list, and I'm exited about some of the items on it... what's that? you want me to post the list... nah.... too lazy.

 

I got a call from my cousin last night, he's getting married... I am very excited for him... his fiance is canadian so that makes the whole situation that much better.

 

Question Sleep

 

Sooo... I didn't get too much sleep last night... I would blame Jhonen Vasquez, but he neither forced me to download his comics from the internets, nor forced me to choose midnight sunday on a day before I had to get up early for my chiropractic adjustmant to read six of them, and I was the one who drank all that coke and coffee, and I was the one who never read them as in high school when he was acctually writing his early stuff despite the fact that other kids were reading it and I could have if I wanted too... so I guess I don't blame anyone, I guess I sorta thank myself for holding off so long, but also regret it... oh, I seem to have forgotten that I am tired because I am too busy and too filled with coke to notice, odd that.

 

Anyways, the lack of sleep and influx of caffeine and mind-altering comics have put me in a rather creative place, but that is being balanced by the job I do sucking it out of my brain... have you ever read "I feel sick", while I don't pretend to be an visual artist very often anymore... I really understood about how a job sucks up all your brain power without acctually giving you an outlet for creativity... like using your mind constantly but never acctually thinking about anything, it's awful...

 

Anyways "Jhonen Vasquez" is the obsession of the moment.

 

There are two ways to approach his work really.  There's the "watching Invader ZIM until your eyes bleed and then when it's over, going into a deep depression and discovering his old works which will join you in that dark place", or the "reading his dark works like Johnny The Homocidal Maniac and I feel Sick until your head explodes or you poo blood, and when all hope is lost discover ZIM and become happy again".  It doesn't really matter which option you choose... your brain explodes either way and in the same amount of time and with the same amount of torment.

 

Yeah, a lot of Mall-Goth's think that Jhonen Vasquez is whatever their little "Desperately Trying to Fit In With All The Other Social Outcasts" equivalent of a prophet is... and seeing as he seems to hate all people incliding those who idolize him and that quoted part I put of there is from and interview I found of his, that exemplifies a lot about a lot that I won't go into... let's just say something fancy like "the irony is both delectable and satifying".

 

One thing I really like about his work is that it seems to spur on my creativity... I really wonder what he's been doing all these years seeing as he's avergaed about 1 comic a year for the period of time when he was not working on ZIM.

 

Anyways, I'm not an insomniac, I'm a caffeine abuser... there is a difference in that I don't use caffeine all the time and I acctually get quite a bit of sleep.

 

I havn't acctually read JTHM yet... I plan to do so over the next little while between X-men comics and the Bartimeus Trilogy... but I have read quite a bit about it in the bit's and pieces I've been finding out about JV... and I look forward to entertaining the idea of murder as being a character flaw instead of "the big evil thing we must stop" you get on shows like CSI.

 

Goodnight Schmee.

 

Anyways... Stuff

 

So I'm planning on having a party in the near future, technically all you you are invited... but seeing as I am using this blog as a glorified diary that is censored for... spelling and grammar... yes... that means I'm inviting myself over to my place saturday the 28th for board games like Atmosphere, Zombies and Some Structured Interactive Story-telling... and maybe some food and music and talking...

 

I was hanging out with the Band this saturday evening and we had a great time just sitting around the appartment... playing a few games... watching hockey... been so long since I did that kind of thing with more then just trish... and maybe gene... but seems to fall asleep when you turn your back on him for a second so it's not quite the same. It's nice, I like the Band guys and they are fun to hang out with and talk to even when we arn't jamming.  The process of making music together is not magical... it acctually resembles work from what I have observed... as the singer songwriter in a band that only does covers I haven't had too much to do myself up till now... when I get bored later in the day I think I'm going to write a song about caffeine, sleep, busses and morons... the only subjects I have a passion for which make good heavy-metal-blues-fusion subjects... I fear I may be becoming emo.

 

Anyways... yeah... needs to write a song or something.

 

I think I'll be done with this for now... caffeine is running out and I might not be thinking strait right now.

 

-- Benjie